I Wonder...

Is it possible to be made to feel any less desirable and any more like the world's most annoying person? If there is, shoot me now.

Every time I leave, I feel horrible about myself. I can go spend time with him and be on top of the world, but by the time I leave, all I want to do is cry because he's so bloody critical and belittles me every chance he gets. I touch him, my hand gets slapped. I speak and I get yelled at for being too loud. I'm affectionate and get pushed away. I go to kiss him and he can't even make the effort to reciprocate. Hell, even sex is out unless of course he wants to be satisfied. I seriously can do no right. He should pair up with my family and together they can have what they all seem to want: me, broken and finally destroyed.

I don't understand why people have to treat others like that and I especially don't understand why the hell I keep putting up with it. Old habits die hard I guess.