Now is the time for guts and gile.

My life has always been about giving someone else power and control over me. It started with my family, always doing whatever they wanted, whatever it was I thought would please them or to make them proud of me. It was the only way to get their attention and I guess I learned that it was the only way to get people to notice me. Since then, I still continue to give as much as I can to people, always looking for their approval, always trying to make them happy. In turn, I forgot to do the same for myself and thus, never learned how. I inflated everyone else's ego, and in the process deflated my own. Now I'm left with little sense of self and low self esteem. I'm so tired of it, and I can't do it anymore. I'm tired of giving people control and power over me for as I have learned, all they ever do is abuse it and use it to their gain. No longer will I be anyone's patsy.